back on DA 18 months later.heres whats new with meim 23 now awesome. finished uni, bumming around for a few months working on and off doing nothing really broke up with woman, got back with woman, then she broke up with me, got full time work as a scaffolder. good having money and good having no free time to to think. thinking makes me think how much ive changed since i last wrote in this diary. i read back and think, "geez who is this silly kid" i guess its still me just at a different time. i feel melancholy, like iom reminiscing, spending my time thinking about better times that wont happen again, trying to find a way to make myself get up and make new fun times. i feel like ive lost who i am, all my friends are leaving the country or state, i lost my woman and i cant remmeber what i used to be like, days pass now like leaves falling off a tree, one after another each just teh same as the last. i used to be able to be with myself and be happy, im only happy around people, and soon there will be none left. i need to find myself again, i want to love again but every woman i see i just compare to my old one and then they seem like shit. i know theres a million little shits on here whingign about how they broke up and shit, but we were together about 3 years, lioves together for abotu 2, so.... i hate the fact that i still love her. she doesnt care. luci if you read this, fuck you for making me feel this way. yes i know i sound quite emo shut up. i guess iv come to a point in my life where a lot of thisgs hacve changed, i dont want them tooo and i dont want to change but i guess i will have to say goodbye to old me and try and find a new me. hope i like him!
why am i writing in DA after about a year and a half? cuz i need to write somewhre and nobody on DA actually knows me, so unlike facebook i can just ramble about crap i need to get out withouth mjy friends knowing how i feel.
thanks for reading if you got this far
seeya fuckers
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As for the break up, i'm sorry. Seems like you're taking it better then others given the fact that you were together so long. I do hope you are able to find someone who will treat you right and be there for you. Someone who will compare better then the rest to your ex.
go ahead and try to find the new you, just don't loose grasp of the old you along the way.
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time slips away like soap in the bath tub, and its hard to find with all the bubbles taking up the room.
I hope the path is wide and full of wonderful curves that take you to many wonderful places and let you meet many wonderful people. I think I may have over-used wonderful. Isn't that just...eh, I am not going to say it.
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I am super wonderful. You know with less wonderful and no super. Nah, but yeah I am good and alive. Just trying to hold on to a job in this horrible economy over here.
Of course I care man, and thanks.
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